Good bye, 2018: It's time to believe

Flashback to 2018, I thought I’d been through great things all in one year. I said great, because it really was. As a postgrad-student, I found myself had passed much challenges about it. As a future psychologist, I learned a lot from every people I met in my PKPP place, especially they whom I met in counselling rooms.

In 2018, I learned that little things matter. 

How we interpret something, matters. Also, a quality time and deep conversation are also matters.

Pernahkah Kamu Merasa Lelah Meski Sedang Melakukan Hal yang Paling Kamu Inginkan?

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Gelas caffe latte milikku nyaris kosong.

Sudah satu jam berlalu di tempat nugas favoritku dan aku masih merasa sedang menghindari untuk mengerjakan tugas yang masih super banyak sebenarnya.

Mungkin pikiranku sedang butuh untuk dikeluarkan. Keresahanku sedang butuh untuk didengarkan, dituangkan dalam bahasa yang dapat aku maknai dan bisa aku baca ulang ketika aku butuh.

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Sudah bulan November yang berarti sebentar lagi tahun berganti. Satu semesterku, sebagai mahasiswa profesi akan segera berlalu. Akan ada libur panjang yang benar-benar aku butuhkan dalam perjalanan yang cukup melelahkan ini.

Iya, sepertinya aku sedang kelelahan.

Apa yang terjadi ketika kita mengakui kelemahan kita?

Minggu ini adalah minggu-minggu terberat untukku sebagai mahasiswa magister profesi psikologi klinis. 

Kenapa?
Selain tugas yang datang berturut-turut, ada juga praktikum yang perlu kami lalui. Kami sudah diberitahu jauh sejak awal kuliah bahwa proses perkuliahan ini akan sangat padat, menantang dan cenderung menguras energi. Tapi kami belum benar-benar paham sebelum pada akhirnya, minggu ini datang.

Surprise!

When was the last time you did something for the first time?

- Pinterest.com

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Hey, Monday! 

Glad to finally see you again.

Have just remembered that last week on the same day, I was totally nervous and.... sick. Why? Because last Tuesday was my first trip to Bandung (alone!) by train. 

My first trip-ever going to somewhere which is 8-hours far away from Jogja by my self.

Like, ever. This was a surpriseful experienced I'd ever had. 

So, what I was there for? 

Trusting your feeling.

“It is okay to be sad, happy, angry, scared, worried, doubtful, guilty, disappointed, hate and other emotion. Even, it is okay to be confused with what you felt. You are a human, so it is natural to have emotions (positive and negative). 

The point is not about eliminating them. It is about realizing and accepting them. Yes, just realize and release everything that hold you back. 

Try to recognize and remember the reason behind your emotion. Forgive yourself, forgive your past. Make them your best teacher in life. 
If you can’t do this alone, it is okay to ask people for help. Since the mind is the key of our life, it is important to keep ours positive and “healthy”. 
Because being healthy is not just about the body, but also about mind itself.”

– Lesson learned I got from the Basic Individual Intervention class: Humanistic perspective.

Hugs and kisses,
Nisrina.

Perempuan itu, Kamu.

Semua perempuan cantik. Saya percaya itu,
       dan akan selalu percaya.

Masalah warna kulit, ukuran tubuh, wajah, dan hal-hal berbau fisik lainnya adalah masalah yang tidak sepantasnya diperdebatkan. Sama halnya ketika ada seseorang yang mengatakan “Dia cantik”, dan “Kamu nggak cantik” (bagian ini sepertinya jarang didengar secara langsung, haha).

Definisi cantik menurut saya?

“Seseorang yang percaya diri, mampu menerima keadaan dirinya sendiri, berwawasan luas, memiliki kebaikan hati, dan tidak pernah lelah untuk menebarkan kebaikan dan kebermanfaatannya untuk siapapun di dunia ini.”

Tidak ada fisik, tidak ada hal-hal lain selain fitrahnya sebagai perempuan, sebagai manusia, sebagai makhluk ciptaan-Nya.

Namun apalah arti cantik jika tidak diikuti dengan hal-hal positif yang dilakukan untuk bisa mengembangkan dirinya sendiri?

Book review: Finchickup!

“Pertanyaan tentang investasi selalu sama: kapan kita harus mulai berinvestasi? 

Jawabannya pun selalu serupa: SECEPATNYA!”

– halaman 204

Pernah ngalamin kehabisan uang di tengah bulan?

Aku sering banget! Hahahaha.

Sebagai mahasiswa yang…ehem, masih dikasih uang dari orang tua, aku termasuk orang yang super-duper-boros. Paling banyak sih, habis di makan, hehe. Banyak kok yang udah ngomelin dan kasih “nasihat sok bijak” buat aku. Tapiiii… semua nasihat mereka berakhir di telinga tanpa aku lakuin. Bukan berarti aku nggak peduli, aku sadar diri kok. Pelan-pelan belajar lebih bijaksana ngatur keuangan. Bener-bener nggak gampang karena aku terbiasa ngeluarin uang buat beli hal-hal remeh tanpa pikir panjang.

Dan pada suatu hari, beberapa bulan yang lalu, aku lihat satu buku yang menarik. Sayangnya, waktu itu nggak ada uang dan belum ngerasa butuh banget, jadi aku nggak beli langsung. Bulan-bulan berikutnya, aku makin nyadar kalo aku butuh satu “panduan” yang pasti buat ngatur keuangan, seenggaknya, biar aku bisa lebih membuka mata dan pikiran tentang keuangan. Jadilah, bulan ini aku beli buku ini… jeng-jeng-jeng!

Self Intervention

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'Cause the players gonna play,

And the haters gonna hate,

Baby, I'm just gonna shake, 

I shake it off, I shake it off

Heart-breakers gonna break,

And the fakers gonna fake, 

Baby, I'm just gonna shake,

I shake it off, I shake it off

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A quick post to sum up the first week on Jogja after one month holiday.

Persona

I’d just slapped. Not literally, hahaha.

Yesterday was a sunny afternoon – after raining for several days – when I met my high-school best friend. It was a simple conversation, very simple but for me, it makes me think more. About me and this blog, my writings.

“You have changed or just growing up? I don’t know.

I thought, there’s something different about your posts (on blog). I just thought that there’s something you hide between your words. Do you make some boundaries?

What I know is that I was bored with your last writings."

Definitely, she said something which I’d questioned to my self recently. She found it. She showed me the wrong part.

Though what she said isn’t 100% true.

what you need to know when you are 20 year old.

Sketched by Nisrina.

What is your definition about “being productive”?
Some people might say: doing something that earn some money.
Or doing some projects.
Or creating something new.
Or…. Anything else?
This question leads me to write this post.
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I never thought that being 20 year-old would be much complicated. 

You are no longer an adolescent. But then, it feels weird to call yourself as an adult because you are too young too be in this category. You still have to do your tasks and roles as an adolescent, plus, your new tasks and roles as an early adult. 

Enough? Not yet. 

These new tasks and new roles in society would successfully create a conflict within yourself.

a clear mind.

Huge things will happen in our life.

It’s like a volcanic eruptions: when it happened, everything around becomes fell apart. Everything changed until the original form no longer visible; the only thing left is memories.

This is the stage of life.

Tertulis untukmu, BONIA.

“Meski kau kini jauh disana, kita memandang langit yang sama,

Jauh di mata namun dekat di hati..”

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Teruntuk, BONIA.

Biasanya, pada setiap awal surat, akan selalu ada kabar yang ditanyakan.

Tapi aku tak akan bertanya kabar pada kalian melalui tulisan ini.

bermain dengan impian.

Selamat malam, maaf untuk postingan berbahasa Indonesia (lagi). 

Bolehkah saya berbagi cerita di malam minggu nan sendu ini? Di sela-sela tugas yang menyita minggu-penuh-liburan ini, bolehkah?

Jadi begini, 

Sejak awal semester empat ini, kepala saya sudah dipenuhi setumpuk pertanyaan yang belum juga terjawab hingga sekarang.Dan mendadak saya merasa menjadi remaja akhir yang baru mengalami krisis identitas. 

Ya, saya merasa terlambat menghadapi krisis identitas. 

teruntuk kamu, 2012.

2012. 

Faculty of psychology.

"How could you get here?"  

Different choice; Different reason; Different background.

Still on the same process

How would we finish it? 

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hai teman,

Kelas asesmen pagi tadi membuat saya mendadak ingin menulis hal ini.
Sebuah hal yang sederhana, sebenarnya.
Ya, terlampau sederhana hingga kadang terabai.
Ini adalah kata, yang sebenarnya sudah berdiam cukup lama di dalam sini, ya, di kepala ini.

Sebuah pertanyaan singkat, yang berhasil membuat saya menye-menye dan mendadak menulis ini.

"Mengapa memilih psikologi?" 

Apapun yang menjadi alasanmu berada disini, saat ini kita sedang berjuang bersama.
Mari berproses bersama!

dengan cinta,
nisrina.

when (your) future psychologist needs a psychologist.

I’ve been thinking to write something about me and my future.

Well, I know this is not a simple thing to talk about. I just…trying to figure it out.
Actually, this post is also inspired by my conversation with Anggrek this afternoon. She said, “My mom had just told me to prepare my future well.
You know, to get a job isn’t an easy thing these days…”

Right.

Future.

a hello from miss busy-wizzy.

Seriously, I've been missed you so much, blog. 

I miss blogging, writing, reading, also, I miss my weekends! 

Since I haven't had a 'real' weekend for September, October, and also November. 

I miss my hometown too. 

I miss my family. 

Mom, dad, nabil and fakhri. 

Ah, I miss everything right now. 

 Can someone call 'doraemon' for his 'magical-door'?

xoxo, 

and finally I'm back!

Salut!
Comment-allez vous? 

I do miss you so much blog!
You know, these days I’ve made much suprisingly-decision. I, myself never thought that I’d do such a totally-crazy thing. The first one was failed before I did something to get it. Hahahaha. So, yes, I was disqualified because I couldn’t come on the selection day. Aaand the second one will be coming up on June 1st. hahaha Wish me all the best! And for this second decision I made, my friends thought that I was crazy.
But yes, you-all are right, I have been crazy -_- hahahah.

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Btw, It's been a year since the announcement day of snmptn undangan for me. And yesterday was the announcement day of snmptn undangan for 2013. I feel touched reading their happy-tweet for those who finally had got what they want. Yaaay, I was. Hahaha :') 

Aaaand for those who haven't got what you want, do not give up! 

I found this beautiful quotation for youuu!

"I know it hurts right now. But things are not always what they seem in the moment. Give it some time, life has a way for solve it to be better." - Starstruck Movie (2010)

Yeah, life has a way for solve it to be better. God must have had a beautiful plan for you! :) Keep trying, keep praying, keep fighting!! *hugs*

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Woohoo, It’s almost Juneeee! That would be my last month for the second semester college!
Do you know what does it mean???
Do you smell something???
I do!!!

It means H-O-L-I-D-A-Y! I smell H-O-L-I-D-A-Y! WOOHOO. So please, June,  come and end faster, because me want JULY! :3

Anyhow, I don’t know why 4 posts before this post were “galau” posts-_- Ah, reading these old posts have finally make me feel so embarassed -_- how not-so-unimportant- posts - they were!
I am sorry, blog. I promise, I won’t be “galau” on my next posts :3

So how’s your day, bloggie?
I do hope yours were as awesome as mine!

Tchao!

bon week-end!

BONJOUR! 

It's a really early post! hahahaha. Yes, finally I could take a breath, relax this weekend. Today I'll tidy up my room. Umm.. also, still busy to study for 'Ujian Blok' next Monday. 

Overall, yeah, I'm glad because finally I could stay on my room all day long! woohoo. But, yeah, next week I will be busier yet exciting. I'll talk to you soon! 

Happy Weekend! 

Bon week-end!  

Yes, this is my own room! I love the decoration, eventhough it seems rather weird ._. pffft 

xoxo,

Miss Nerdy.

busy-busy weekss!

Bonjour!
Hahahaha I know it's a very-early post. You might be wondering what I did in this early morning. The answer is: 'nugas'. Yes, I'm still trying to finish my task and I supposed to study too because today I'll have a quiz for Theories of Personality subjects. Oh Gosh, since the first week I started my 2nd Semester on college, I had to realize and accept that I would be so damn terrible busy for several weeks until my 2nd Semester ends, maybe.
Aaaaaaak, you know I feel like a 'jetlag'. And I wish I would pass it well :'(
Talk to you later, blog!
I'll miss you!

taken from pinterest.com

xoxo,
The very-busy-girl.

first post on 2013.

Already have a plan to post here since a week ago. But have just had time to write something today. Now. Right now. Hahaha. Forgive me, forgive the modem also. Yes, my internet connection is so terrible. Ugh. I wish I had a-fast-and-unlimited internet connection. I wish.

Anyways, it’s been a week I’m here in Pekalongan, and also, it’s been a week I’m having a great-kind-of-extra-quick-holiday. Yeah, I only have not-more-than-3-week-holiday. Uumm.. so far I enjoyed it much. And I know that I should spend my time well. Uuuuh, I miss Pekalongan so bad. And here goes I am. I’m home.

Fortunately my cousin, Pungky, came to Pekalongan for a week. Then I spent my first-week-holiday to take her walking around Pekalongan. Yeah, my first week was not bad. I mean, it’s fun enough.
Theeen, finally I could meet my besties again!! Betha, Diba, Opi, and Izzah! Yay! We finally meet up, girlss! Eventhou it’s just a day but it’s totally fun to chat and laugh with you, girls! I’ll miss you (again) so bad!! :’)
FYI, today is Betha's birthday! yayy!

 


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These days people around me start talking ‘bout dreams… actually, my junior in high school and some of my friends. What we’re dreaming is actually not the same as in the reality. Sometimes reality forced us to be more realistic and forget about ‘what-will-be-so-hard-for-you-to-get’.
I think there’s no things like : ‘what-will-be-so-hard-for-you-to-get’. There’s just ‘not for this time’ or it could mean it’s pending. Postponed. Not now, but it will. You will get it. Just go reach it. You need to try more and more. You need more effort to get it.

….. I me, myself also still wondering. I really want to join an organization in university level, but yeah I’m afraid I can’t handle the organization in my faculty, my french course, and my college tasks. But then… just questioning… can I?
The deadline to send the application is until February 12th, this means…. I still have 2 weeks to think it well. I hope my desicion will good enough for me and others… aamiin =)

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Is love really could change someone’s act?
If it’s right, then I must be in love right now. LOL.

talk to you again soon!

xoxo,