One anxious night; The truth about being an overthinker

“Yang ditunggu, yang diharap, biarkanlah semesta bekerja untukmu.”

– Rehat, Kunto Aji.

I had gloomy days several days ago. I could easily blame the hormones (because it’s my menstrual cycle), but I know it’s just a trigger.

I can be so anxious when I think too much.
And here goes the time. After what I’ve written on my post about new year resolution, I think that was a challenge I need to face.

One Tuesday night, I got a sudden sadness “attack”. I already felt so tired but also need to do lots of stuff that time. Then comes my anxiety, which suddenly changed into a “sadness attack”. I cried all night. It was hard for me to sleep because I couldn’t stop crying that time.
I felt so sad and find nobody because it was midnight.

Good bye, 2018: It's time to believe

Flashback to 2018, I thought I’d been through great things all in one year. I said great, because it really was. As a postgrad-student, I found myself had passed much challenges about it. As a future psychologist, I learned a lot from every people I met in my PKPP place, especially they whom I met in counselling rooms.

In 2018, I learned that little things matter. 

How we interpret something, matters. Also, a quality time and deep conversation are also matters.