Berbicara Cinta #4: Cemburu

“I'm jealous, I'm overzealous. When I'm down, I get real down. When I'm high, I don't come down.”

– Issues, Julia Michaels

Jangan cemburu; Buang jauh-jauh perasaan cemburumu; Cemburu itu buruk.
Kenapa ya, cemburu itu biasanya dihubungkan dengan hal yang negatif?

Apa yang terjadi ketika kita mengakui kelemahan kita?

Minggu ini adalah minggu-minggu terberat untukku sebagai mahasiswa magister profesi psikologi klinis. 

Kenapa?
Selain tugas yang datang berturut-turut, ada juga praktikum yang perlu kami lalui. Kami sudah diberitahu jauh sejak awal kuliah bahwa proses perkuliahan ini akan sangat padat, menantang dan cenderung menguras energi. Tapi kami belum benar-benar paham sebelum pada akhirnya, minggu ini datang.

Mengurai Kenangan, Memanggil Kembali Ingatan

“I know I am loved. I am surrounded with love, because I feel so.”

Ingatan adalah dua sisi mata uang.

Kadang kita ingin menjaganya baik-baik, tak jarang juga kita ingin membuangnya lekas-lekas. Sayangnya, kita tidak bisa memilih ingatan mana yang menetap, mana yang lamat-lamat hilang menguap.

Jangan pikir ketika kita tidak mengingat apa-apa tentang satu hal, itu artinya kita telah benar-benar melupakannya. Barangkali ingatan itu justru berada dalam tempat penyimpanan yang lebih permanen: di bawah kesadaran kita.

Berbicara Cinta #3: Tentang Jarak, Ruang, dan Waktu

“The scary thing about distance is you don’t know whether they’ll miss you or forget you.”

– The Notebook via Goodreads.com

Menjalin sebuah hubungan jarak jauh, bagi sebagian besar orang adalah hal yang mengerikan. Sebab selalu ada kemungkinan buruk yang menghantui: perpisahan.

Do "Happily Ever After" Really Exist?

Who believes that a happily ever after- love story only happened in a fairy tale?

"Don't we have a chance to our own story and create the "happily ever after" in our version?"

Berbicara Cinta #2: Perihal Komitmen

“Cinta itu nggak butuh alasan. 
Bertahan dalam cintalah yang membutuhkan alasan.”

Pernyataan itu saya tuliskan saat salah seorang sahabat meminta saya membuat sebuah “kata-kata puitis” untuk ia kirimkan pada seseorang. Sebenarnya saya nggak berniat untuk memberikan dua kalimat itu. Ada 3 kalimat lainnya yang saya tawarkan untuk ia pilih. Namun, sahabat saya menilai kalimat terakhir itulah yang paling tepat.

Saya sendiri merasa tertampar membaca dua rangkai kalimat itu. Selama beberapa bulan terakhir, sejak tulisan pertama saya: Berbicara Cinta, saya berkontemplasi. Saya berusaha memaknai apa itu cinta dan bagaimana sebenarnya bentuk relasi antara dua orang yang sedang jatuh cinta. Pencarian saya ini justru sempat membuat saya menjadi skeptis terhadap cinta.

(Aku tidak suka) AADC #2

“Akhirnya kau hilang. Kau meninggalkan aku –

dan kenangan kini satu-satunya masa depan yang tersisa.”

- Tidak Ada New York Hari Ini (halaman 71).

Aku tidak pernah berharap untuk lekas-lekas melupakanmu. 

Berbicara Cinta

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“Truth is, everybody is going to leave us, eventually. Sometimes it’s their choice, sometimes it’s our choice, sometimes it’s nobody’s choice.” 
- @ikanatassa

Dalam beberapa hal, cinta dapat menumbuhkan. Membuat seseorang menjadi begitu bersemangat dan memiliki gairah untuk hidup. Cinta, seperti semacam doping yang tidak akan pernah habis, juga tidak memiliki efek samping.

Dalam beberapa hal juga, cinta dapat melumpuhkan. Seperti misalnya, ketika sedang patah hati. Mendadak jadi kehilangan daya bahkan untuk beranjak dari tempat tidur pun tak mampu. Seolah dunia gelap gulita dan masa depan hampa karena orang yang dicinta telah pergi meninggalkan.

Tapi apakah itu benar-benar cinta?

Apa yang terjadi padaku akhir-akhir ini.

Ratu Boko, 31 Oktober 2015

“Itu bisa jadi karena tension type headache, Nis. Karena kita banyak kerja kurang istirahat. Kerja fisik, juga kerja pikiran.”

Penjelasan singkat itu aku dapat dari obrolan via Line dengan seorang teman yang baru saja mendapat gelar S.Ked.

Iya, seminggu terakhir aku merasakan sakit di bagian belakang kepala,lebih tepatnya di dekat leher. Awalnya aku mengira karena posisi tidurku yang salah. Tapi sakit kepala ini timbul-tenggelam. Kadang sakit, tapi setelah beberapa jam mereda, lalu sakit lagi. Aku sudah mengira ada yang salah dengan tubuhku. Dan begitu membaca jawaban dari temanku, aku tidak cukup kaget mendengarnya hahaha.

a brand new day, bienvenue.

Photo taken by Nisrina.

I dunno why I’m feeling so blue today. 

This should be a special day, right?

But why, by the time I’m writing this post I’m still feeling unwell. I’ve tried to ask myself about it.  I just found…nothing.

I’m trying to figure it out the reason of the clouds in my mind.

Oh, Nisrina, 
How could you being sad all day long, even when everyone congratulating you for your best day?

your favorite quotes.

“The past could affect the future.”

image taken from nisrinays instagram

And that words make me think more about it.

Actually, I often think about random moments which had happened; which I’d been through, or you may called it: the past.

Well, I sometimes enjoy to recall the past because… it was quite interesting.

The moment when you created your facebook account for the first time, when you had a ‘galau moment’ in your teenager phase, when you fell in love then finally had a relationship with him/her that you like, when for the first time you got a heartbreak….

Tertulis untukmu, BONIA.

“Meski kau kini jauh disana, kita memandang langit yang sama,

Jauh di mata namun dekat di hati..”

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Teruntuk, BONIA.

Biasanya, pada setiap awal surat, akan selalu ada kabar yang ditanyakan.

Tapi aku tak akan bertanya kabar pada kalian melalui tulisan ini.

teruntuk kamu, 2012.

2012. 

Faculty of psychology.

"How could you get here?"  

Different choice; Different reason; Different background.

Still on the same process

How would we finish it? 

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hai teman,

Kelas asesmen pagi tadi membuat saya mendadak ingin menulis hal ini.
Sebuah hal yang sederhana, sebenarnya.
Ya, terlampau sederhana hingga kadang terabai.
Ini adalah kata, yang sebenarnya sudah berdiam cukup lama di dalam sini, ya, di kepala ini.

Sebuah pertanyaan singkat, yang berhasil membuat saya menye-menye dan mendadak menulis ini.

"Mengapa memilih psikologi?" 

Apapun yang menjadi alasanmu berada disini, saat ini kita sedang berjuang bersama.
Mari berproses bersama!

dengan cinta,
nisrina.

pour mon pere.

Dear dad,

I know how you don’t like birthday-thing much.

But to read your birthday wishes for me on facebook really makes me miss you more here. 

To read your birthday wishes on facebook several days ago makes me realize how you love me so much, and I know that you’ve been prayed for me everyday. Even though you just sending me a really short SMS, I know that your wishes are too much to written down via SMS.

So here’s a special post for you. 

A little birthday wishes for you.

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Thank you for your patience facing your moody-childish-daughter,

Thank you for always picking me up wherever and whenever I call you,

Thank you for trusting me to choose things I wanna do,

Thank you for supporting me in everything I do,

Thank you for your prayer for me everyday,

Thank you so much for loving mom, me, nabil, and fakhri

I love you, Dad.

I miss you, Dad.

Happy 51th Birthday.

(September 25th)

with love, 

your little girl

Nisrina Putri.

*ps: I really sorry for this late birthday wishes, 

but I do hope you'd like it, Dad :)

les photos.

And finally, this is it! :p

Some photos I want to share to you!

voila! 

With mommy! This photo was taken on November. We both look cute, isn't it? :p

with Bolon-girls! :p It was taken on PASAKRAB event on last October! FYI, it's our 2012's first project!

With Bolon + Kak Pamela + Kak Jojo! Mihihihi. It was taken when we're on TKA! On last October if I'm not wrong. TKA (Temu Kenal Akrab) was totally FUN.

This photo was taken on this December! On LM Psychology's biggest event of the year: SEMINAR NASIONAL! It's great to meet and have many new friends there! 

AAAAAND, with ma beloved cousins!!! mihihihi, sorry if this photo looks "too much" :p

I placed these photos randomly. Sorry :p

Talk to you again soon! 

Anyway, I still haven't had any idea where to spend my new year's eve. hmm... any idea? Can anybody ask me to go to somewhere in new year's eve?-_-

xoxo,

dear rain, I miss my rainbow.

image source weheartit

Dear rainbow,

Thank you for making my world more colorful

Thank you for making me laugh with your simple thought

Thank you for being the sweetest person I’ve ever met

Thank you for inspiring me to be someone better

All I can say is thank you for everything

I never ever thought that prince is exist-that’s you :p

Thank you thank you thank you

Dear rainbow,

I’m sorry for my imperfect

I’ve promised to myself that I, whatever happen I won’t never let you hurt

I won’t ever let you sad

I won’t ever let your bright-smile disappear

If there’s someone who should hurt , then that should be me, not you

Dear rainbow,

I love you.

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xoxo,
 

Alhamdulillah♥

Allah is so fair. You know, what you’ve seen through this blog-those months when I had spent mostly for "galau"-ing here. Now, ya I finally can find a rainbow, Alhamdulillah :) 

This is the most beautiful rainbow I’ve ever seen :’) 

Finally, I graduated from senior high school,being a Psychology student of Gadjah Mada University –this is really unbelievable and him ♥

Yes, I know that everything will be beautiful on its time :)

Alhamdulillah :)))

Best-Prom-Ever!

People said that Senior High School is the best moment ever. I definitely agree!

Yes, it is! Senior High School is the best moment ever-ever-ever in this world!!! 

Aaand... Yeah, I'll leave it soon. 

Yes, I'll be college student soon, amin ;) 

Mihihihihi. 

Last week, April 26th 2012 My Senior-High-School-Prom was held. It was absolutely awesome! (Y) wkwkwk. 

Oh, I suddenly realize that I would miss senior high school moments :'( 

But then, life must go on! ;)) 

So here they are,the photos:

I dance! Ya, I dance with my classmates :p mihihi. 

This is a "Tribute from 12th Grade students :p"

Photos,photos,photos. 

Too many photos to upload, so I decided to minimize it :p wkwk

and this one :))

It's Spring! 

Our Class's theme is Spring! 

mihihihi.

Yes, I love them so much <3

This is my class! 12 Science 7! Yeaaaah. 

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LOL.
I uploaded these photos randomly, anyway :p
Fyi, I finally leave science and choose social.
Bismillah :)
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 xoxo,
 

"I wish nothing but the best 4 you"....

I thought a “Happy Ending” was only on a fairy tale, Disney’s story or novel.
But I’m wrong.

A Happy Ending is a time when you finally could receive and be grateful for everything that have happened, and we’ve got.

Yes, a “Happy Ending” is not about the thing that you wished or dreamed came true. But it’s about the process. It’s about you how did it, seriously or just a-half. Never expecting that you will get a HAPPY ENDING before you really try to get it.

Anyways, yes, I knew that I will get my “HAPPY ENDING”. It’s about my dreams,my hopes. And.. yeah, thanks for everyone which have insipired me until I, me, become NISRINA like now :p
Remember: nobody’s perfect. Just keep trying to become a better person in this life :)

Alhamdulillah, Allah sends a lot of people who love me so much.

Mama, Papa, Nabil, Fakhri: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

My best friends (Betha, Opi, Diba, Izzah, Saras) and My Classmates (ALIENS): I LOVE YOU.

My big family, my grandma, cousins, uncles, aunties, and everyone: I LOVE YOU.

Especially for A: I love you, thank you for everything, “I wish nothing but the best 4 you, 4 us.” :p

Yeah, today and yesterday, I’d got sucha fun, amazing, unforgetable-experiences. Yes, it’s a CYOF. Annual-activity which have been held for 8 years for 12th grade students of SMA Negeri 1 Pekalongan. It was held by the alumni of smansa, mr. Heppy Trenggono. Yes, he’s so inspiring, and Alhamdulillah, I’m so grateful for becoming a smansa student.

Aaaaaah, Alhamdulillah ya Allah, from today, I’ll be a better, an optimistic, a cheerful, a kind, a nice, a beautiful girl! :p Amin.

Love ya my visitors! :p

xoxo,

what I do when....

When I’m sad, I thank Allah for everything He had given to me (Alhamdulillah).
When I’m sad, I write on this blog or on my laptop.
When I’m sad, I play the music on my music playlist and listen to Afgan’s song or Glee Soundtrack.
When I’m sad, I visit my favorite online store.
When I’m sad… I tell myself to be happy instead of sad ;)

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The school-schedule for February until June will be very busy. I do hope the national examination, school examination and everything about the-senior-high-school-student-last-year will be okay and I do hope for the best result! Hihihi ;) Wish us-the senior-high-school-students luck!

I love you, my sweetie readers! So much love you :* (even I don’t know whether there’s reader or not on my blog :p mihihihihi, anyways, I looove you!) and thank you for your comments, I do appreciate it! It's a worth thing! ;)

xoxo,