Apa yang terjadi padaku akhir-akhir ini.

Ratu Boko, 31 Oktober 2015

“Itu bisa jadi karena tension type headache, Nis. Karena kita banyak kerja kurang istirahat. Kerja fisik, juga kerja pikiran.”

Penjelasan singkat itu aku dapat dari obrolan via Line dengan seorang teman yang baru saja mendapat gelar S.Ked.

Iya, seminggu terakhir aku merasakan sakit di bagian belakang kepala,lebih tepatnya di dekat leher. Awalnya aku mengira karena posisi tidurku yang salah. Tapi sakit kepala ini timbul-tenggelam. Kadang sakit, tapi setelah beberapa jam mereda, lalu sakit lagi. Aku sudah mengira ada yang salah dengan tubuhku. Dan begitu membaca jawaban dari temanku, aku tidak cukup kaget mendengarnya hahaha.

At This Moment.

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"Hati adalah air.

Baru mengalir jika 

menggulir dari tempat tinggi 

ke tempat yang lebih rendah. 

Ada gravitasi yang secara alamiah menggiringnya."

sketch by nisrinays

"Seseorang semestinya memutuskan bersama orang lain 

karena menemukan keutuhannya tercermin, 

bukan ketakutan akan sepi."

- Peluk (Rectoverso, 2008)

Imbroglio.

@Nisrinays

“We feel motivated because we choose to, not because the sun happens to shine on our side of the street.” 

- Via Blinkist.com

Have you ever been so tired that all you want to do nothing? 

That at one time, you just want to give up for everything you have done, you have been fighting for. That life, is somehow seems unfair. 

Have you ever got that feeling?

The next question is, what do you do to make everything better? 

Fight or flight?

Face it or avoid it?

between responsible and consequences.

source: somewhere but forgot the link.

Some people say that life is like riding a roller coaster: you could be on the highest, but you could be on the lowest place all of a sudden. 

But for me, life isn’t just about riding (a roller coaster).

I think, life is about how we lead the ride.

we see, then we judge.

image source: pinterest.com

“We do not see things as they are, we see things as we do.”

Ada banyak hal yang kita temui tiap harinya. Orang-orang, jalanan, peristiwa, langit, pagi, siang, malam, panas, dingin, lelah, sebal, marah, beban, tanggungan, cemburu, patah hati. Semuanya. 

Begitu banyak.

a brand new day, bienvenue.

Photo taken by Nisrina.

I dunno why I’m feeling so blue today. 

This should be a special day, right?

But why, by the time I’m writing this post I’m still feeling unwell. I’ve tried to ask myself about it.  I just found…nothing.

I’m trying to figure it out the reason of the clouds in my mind.

Oh, Nisrina, 
How could you being sad all day long, even when everyone congratulating you for your best day?

menulis tak pernah sesulit ini.

Merangkai aksara

Selalu lebih mudah

Daripada

Menjelaskan perasaanku dihadapanmu saat ini juga

une question.

.......

Untukmu, 

Aku hanya bisa bertanya dalam diam

Tertulis untukmu, BONIA.

“Meski kau kini jauh disana, kita memandang langit yang sama,

Jauh di mata namun dekat di hati..”

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Teruntuk, BONIA.

Biasanya, pada setiap awal surat, akan selalu ada kabar yang ditanyakan.

Tapi aku tak akan bertanya kabar pada kalian melalui tulisan ini.

untuk sebuah tanya.

image source: weheartit.com

Bolehkah aku berkemas?

Menyudahi rindu yang kian menggebu 

Semakin lama, semakin tak menentu 

Membuatku berubah jadi dungu 

Bolehkah aku berkemas? 

Merapikan harapan yang lama teronggok di ujung sana 

Membuang kenangan yang mulai usang karena sering diputar-ulang

Membawa pergi kepingan hati yang kini tak utuh lagi 

Bolehkah aku berkemas, saat ini juga? 

Untuk ketidaksabaranku 

Untuk kata yang tak terucap 

Untuk pertemuan masa lalu 

Maafkan aku 

Bolehkah aku berkemas? 

Haruskah aku bertahan? 

Tolong beri tahu aku 

Berikan jawab 

Apapun itu 

Kali ini saja

Jogja, 2-4 April 2014

about moving on.

image source: pinterest.com

Those who say moving on is easy are the one that never feel broken hearted. 

This post was inspired by Adel’s post on her blog, here. Emmm.. I, myself, actually had planned to write this kind of post. But then, I was too lazy to write. Also, everytime I have a time to write, I postponed it until I forgot to write this post. Hahaha.
Like what I write on the first paragraph: Those who say moving on is easy are the one that never feel broken hearted.

great day.

Even though  it's been 4th December, let me say Happy International Day of Persons with Disabilities for the 3rd December! To respect and understand them are ways to help them.
I've been inspired much by helping @DACJogja's mini concert today.You guys are great! 

I'll tell you more as soon as possible, blog!

Bonne nuit!

pour mon pere.

Dear dad,

I know how you don’t like birthday-thing much.

But to read your birthday wishes for me on facebook really makes me miss you more here. 

To read your birthday wishes on facebook several days ago makes me realize how you love me so much, and I know that you’ve been prayed for me everyday. Even though you just sending me a really short SMS, I know that your wishes are too much to written down via SMS.

So here’s a special post for you. 

A little birthday wishes for you.

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Thank you for your patience facing your moody-childish-daughter,

Thank you for always picking me up wherever and whenever I call you,

Thank you for trusting me to choose things I wanna do,

Thank you for supporting me in everything I do,

Thank you for your prayer for me everyday,

Thank you so much for loving mom, me, nabil, and fakhri

I love you, Dad.

I miss you, Dad.

Happy 51th Birthday.

(September 25th)

with love, 

your little girl

Nisrina Putri.

*ps: I really sorry for this late birthday wishes, 

but I do hope you'd like it, Dad :)

trapped.

Have you ever talked with someone and you wished you could talk to him/her forever and ever, even if forever's not exist?

I have.

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Teruntuk kamu,

yang baru kukenal tiga hari lalu...

already midnight.

Once upon a night..
When your lips couldn’t say a word
When your eyes couldn’t tell anything
When your face couldn’t show what you feel
When your fingers couldn’t type a word
Even,
When your mind couldn’t get what you thought,
That means,
You need someone
to hug
and to say: “everything will be okay.”

moments.

Singing Radiohead at the top of our lungs

With the boom box blaring as we're falling in love

Got a bottle of whatever, but it's getting us drunk

Singing here's to never growing up

We'll be running down the street, yelling "Kiss my ass!"

I'm like yeah whatever, we're still living like that

When the sun's going down, we'll be raising our cups

Singing, 
here's to never growing up...

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Avril Lavigne, Here's To Never Grow Up

lyrics taken from here

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Dear blog, I miss high school moments...

and finally I'm back!

Salut!
Comment-allez vous? 

I do miss you so much blog!
You know, these days I’ve made much suprisingly-decision. I, myself never thought that I’d do such a totally-crazy thing. The first one was failed before I did something to get it. Hahahaha. So, yes, I was disqualified because I couldn’t come on the selection day. Aaand the second one will be coming up on June 1st. hahaha Wish me all the best! And for this second decision I made, my friends thought that I was crazy.
But yes, you-all are right, I have been crazy -_- hahahah.

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Btw, It's been a year since the announcement day of snmptn undangan for me. And yesterday was the announcement day of snmptn undangan for 2013. I feel touched reading their happy-tweet for those who finally had got what they want. Yaaay, I was. Hahaha :') 

Aaaand for those who haven't got what you want, do not give up! 

I found this beautiful quotation for youuu!

"I know it hurts right now. But things are not always what they seem in the moment. Give it some time, life has a way for solve it to be better." - Starstruck Movie (2010)

Yeah, life has a way for solve it to be better. God must have had a beautiful plan for you! :) Keep trying, keep praying, keep fighting!! *hugs*

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Woohoo, It’s almost Juneeee! That would be my last month for the second semester college!
Do you know what does it mean???
Do you smell something???
I do!!!

It means H-O-L-I-D-A-Y! I smell H-O-L-I-D-A-Y! WOOHOO. So please, June,  come and end faster, because me want JULY! :3

Anyhow, I don’t know why 4 posts before this post were “galau” posts-_- Ah, reading these old posts have finally make me feel so embarassed -_- how not-so-unimportant- posts - they were!
I am sorry, blog. I promise, I won’t be “galau” on my next posts :3

So how’s your day, bloggie?
I do hope yours were as awesome as mine!

Tchao!

like the sound of the waves.

  

Benarkah cinta diatas segalanya?
Hanyakah itu satu-satunya
Yang menjadi alasan untuk menutup mata
Tak melihat dunia yang sesungguhnya
Dan menjadi jawaban atas semua tanya

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Mata, Hati,Telinga by Maliq n' d'essentials.

Lyrics taken from: kapanlagi.com

Image taken from this

once upon a heart.

“… . perasaan adalah perasaan , meski secuil , walau setitik hitam di tengah lapangan putih luas , dia bisa membuat seluruh tubuh jadi sakit , kehilangan selera makan , kehilangan semangat , hebat sekali benda bernama perasaan itu , dia bisa membuat harimu berubah cerah dalam sekejap padahal dunia sedang mendung , dan di kejap berikutnya mengubah harimu jadi buram padahal dunia sedang terang benderang."
- Tere Liye (Kau, Aku, dan Sepucuk Angpau Merah)

texts taken from here 

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Once upon a heart, I was told by myself....

that moment.

I'm still wondering when will I go home. I mean, yeah, I bet I got a sudden-home sick. hahahah. Yes, Already miss my home...umm, no, actually I miss my family. I miss my mom, my dad, and my brothers. I just....miss them so much right now.

Dear mommy, daddy, yes I do miss you both right now :(

FYI, I've just had a short conversation with them by phone. Aaaand yeah, I just miss them so bad
I still don't know when will I go home since I found no long-weekend for next month :(
Ah :(
Yes, I do feeling so sad.
One of my brother, Nabil, also will have a national examination on next week,  April, 29th. I really wish I could meet him and say something to make him feel better and do his exams well. Yes, I DO REALLY WANNA GO HOME :(
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 ._. Okay, enough ._. hahahaha. Enough for this so-melancholic-post ._. hahaha.
So how are you doing?
How's your weekend?
Does your crush finally know you? *ooops hahahaha.
Yes, he is. But he's just........ hahaha okay then forget about it.
see you next post!!

xoxo,

*image source: pinterest.com