Persona

I’d just slapped. Not literally, hahaha.

Yesterday was a sunny afternoon – after raining for several days – when I met my high-school best friend. It was a simple conversation, very simple but for me, it makes me think more. About me and this blog, my writings.

“You have changed or just growing up? I don’t know.

I thought, there’s something different about your posts (on blog). I just thought that there’s something you hide between your words. Do you make some boundaries?

What I know is that I was bored with your last writings."

Definitely, she said something which I’d questioned to my self recently. She found it. She showed me the wrong part.

Though what she said isn’t 100% true.

between responsible and consequences.

source: somewhere but forgot the link.

Some people say that life is like riding a roller coaster: you could be on the highest, but you could be on the lowest place all of a sudden. 

But for me, life isn’t just about riding (a roller coaster).

I think, life is about how we lead the ride.

beberapa hari sebelum pergantian tahun.

Hai, selamat malam minggu semua.

Lucu sekali, inspirasi menulis saya selalu datang disaat tugas sedang banyak-banyaknya. 

Ehm, sebenarnya hanya satu sih, UAS take home dengan tugas merangkai 3000 kata tentang satu topik bahasan. Perlu digarisbawahi, tugas kali ini adalah tugas membuat paper alias tugas menulis.

Lho, bukannya kamu suka nulis, Nis?

Iya, saya suka nulis. Tapi ya itu, begitu saya sedang menyusun kerangka berpikir untuk paper-yang-panjangnya-3000-kata ini, saya malah membuka jendela Ms. Word yang baru dan memutuskan untuk menulis sesuatu disini.

hypothesis.

© image are courtesy of nisrina.

Akan selalu ada pertanyaan yang muncul dalam pikiran kita yang seringkali tidak dapat kita temukan begitu saja jawabannya. 

Mungkin kita akan menemukan jawabnya setelah kita berusaha mencari.
Mungkin juga tidak: pencarian kita berakhir sia-sia.

Mungkin saja waktu akan memberikan jawab tanpa perlu kita minta, kita hanya perlu sedikit bersabar.
Mungkin juga tidak: waktu kita habis hanya untuk menanti jawab.

Mungkin pula,

hal-hal kecil yang (mungkin) tidak kau tahu.

Ada kalanya seseorang menceritakan masalahnya padamu bukan untuk meminta penyelesaian atau hal-hal lain yang bisa terucap oleh bibirmu.

Bisa saja ia hanya butuh didengarkan.

Karena untuk beberapa orang, itu sudah cukup.

sebelum selamat tinggal.

Ada saat dimana melepaskan jauh lebih baik daripada mempertahankan.

Aku tidak sedang membicarakan hubungan semu cinta picisan. Ini lebih dari itu. Ini tentang sebuah proses yang berat dan penuh pertentangan batin: melepaskan.

Melepaskan apa-apa yang kita genggam begitu erat selama ini.

a brand new day, bienvenue.

Photo taken by Nisrina.

I dunno why I’m feeling so blue today. 

This should be a special day, right?

But why, by the time I’m writing this post I’m still feeling unwell. I’ve tried to ask myself about it.  I just found…nothing.

I’m trying to figure it out the reason of the clouds in my mind.

Oh, Nisrina, 
How could you being sad all day long, even when everyone congratulating you for your best day?

your favorite quotes.

“The past could affect the future.”

image taken from nisrinays instagram

And that words make me think more about it.

Actually, I often think about random moments which had happened; which I’d been through, or you may called it: the past.

Well, I sometimes enjoy to recall the past because… it was quite interesting.

The moment when you created your facebook account for the first time, when you had a ‘galau moment’ in your teenager phase, when you fell in love then finally had a relationship with him/her that you like, when for the first time you got a heartbreak….

une question.

.......

Untukmu, 

Aku hanya bisa bertanya dalam diam

bermain dengan impian.

Selamat malam, maaf untuk postingan berbahasa Indonesia (lagi). 

Bolehkah saya berbagi cerita di malam minggu nan sendu ini? Di sela-sela tugas yang menyita minggu-penuh-liburan ini, bolehkah?

Jadi begini, 

Sejak awal semester empat ini, kepala saya sudah dipenuhi setumpuk pertanyaan yang belum juga terjawab hingga sekarang.Dan mendadak saya merasa menjadi remaja akhir yang baru mengalami krisis identitas. 

Ya, saya merasa terlambat menghadapi krisis identitas. 

about moving on.

image source: pinterest.com

Those who say moving on is easy are the one that never feel broken hearted. 

This post was inspired by Adel’s post on her blog, here. Emmm.. I, myself, actually had planned to write this kind of post. But then, I was too lazy to write. Also, everytime I have a time to write, I postponed it until I forgot to write this post. Hahaha.
Like what I write on the first paragraph: Those who say moving on is easy are the one that never feel broken hearted.

book review: Newt Project.

Newt Project's Old Cover

“Mendapatkan dan kehilangan adalah satu paket yang tak terpisahkan, sama seperti hal lain yang ditakdirkan berpasangan di dunia ini.”- Juli.

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Juli dan Jena tak pernah tahu bahwa selama ini Pramono, ayah kandung mereka memiliki sebuah proyek rahasia yang berhubungan dengan Newt, perusahaan milik ayah mereka. Newt Project adalah sebuah perusahaan penghasil obat-obatan,vaksin, dan alat-alat kesehatan yang namanya cukup diperhitungkan.  

book review: Newt Project.

Newt Project's Old Cover

“Mendapatkan dan kehilangan adalah satu paket yang tak terpisahkan, sama seperti hal lain yang ditakdirkan berpasangan di dunia ini.”- Juli.

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Juli dan Jena tak pernah tahu bahwa selama ini Pramono, ayah kandung mereka memiliki sebuah proyek rahasia yang berhubungan dengan Newt, perusahaan milik ayah mereka. Newt Project adalah sebuah perusahaan penghasil obat-obatan,vaksin, dan alat-alat kesehatan yang namanya cukup diperhitungkan.  

self talk.

It’s almost november.
Hmm.
What I’ve been through so far?
Is that really busy as you said on your last post, Nisrina? Or it’s just your dramatical life that makes it feel so hard to be through,Nis?
What you’ve got so far?
Are those things really worth-to-do? Are those things make you getting closer to what you want in your future,Nis?
Yeah.
I’m asking myself.
*Well, If you wanna answer it , just answer, for yourself not for me.

Where everything seems harder as it looks. When everything you’ve done seems not right, even for yourself. When you could be stressful yet happy at the same time. When you try to do your best, even when you realize at the end you didn’t do your best. When you feel so confused about which one you should choose. That is life.
This is life.
And this is yours, Nis.
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How my current life seems like….

I know where and how to start, but then I forget my own tract and couldn’t find the finish line. I got lost. Somebody please help me to find the finish line.
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But for the hard times, coming back to you is the sweetest escape I’ve ever had, Blog.

pour mon pere.

Dear dad,

I know how you don’t like birthday-thing much.

But to read your birthday wishes for me on facebook really makes me miss you more here. 

To read your birthday wishes on facebook several days ago makes me realize how you love me so much, and I know that you’ve been prayed for me everyday. Even though you just sending me a really short SMS, I know that your wishes are too much to written down via SMS.

So here’s a special post for you. 

A little birthday wishes for you.

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Thank you for your patience facing your moody-childish-daughter,

Thank you for always picking me up wherever and whenever I call you,

Thank you for trusting me to choose things I wanna do,

Thank you for supporting me in everything I do,

Thank you for your prayer for me everyday,

Thank you so much for loving mom, me, nabil, and fakhri

I love you, Dad.

I miss you, Dad.

Happy 51th Birthday.

(September 25th)

with love, 

your little girl

Nisrina Putri.

*ps: I really sorry for this late birthday wishes, 

but I do hope you'd like it, Dad :)

trapped.

Have you ever talked with someone and you wished you could talk to him/her forever and ever, even if forever's not exist?

I have.

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Teruntuk kamu,

yang baru kukenal tiga hari lalu...

it's been a year.

Mostly-heard-sentences, these days…
“Oh, how time flies so fast.”
“Oh, how It’s been a year.”
“A year ago I was busy doing this, this, and that.”
“Oh, how I hate to grow up.”
Emm…the last sentence is exactly what’s on my mind.
I hate growing up. I hate becoming older and older. I hate when everything seems different than before; everything’s change.

On 2012,
I was a new-college-student. I was really afraid of living far away from my parents, I was also afraid of meeting new people.
That was a year ago. When my journey to the real life had just started.
You must have ever heard kind of old wisdom: "Nothing lasts forever."
I do agree.
Yes I really do.
But people are people.
Basically, people tend to choose everything that makes them more comfortable. Change isn’t a good friend for comfort.
Then here’s something we have to notice: change isn’t a good friend of comfort—at the first time.
When we try to see it clearly, change is a natural thing. It happens anytime until we couldn’t realize.
So let's be friend with changes. So when it comes your turn, you could prepare and greet them well :)
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This would be my another a hectic week.
Wish me luck!
xoxo,

already midnight.

Once upon a night..
When your lips couldn’t say a word
When your eyes couldn’t tell anything
When your face couldn’t show what you feel
When your fingers couldn’t type a word
Even,
When your mind couldn’t get what you thought,
That means,
You need someone
to hug
and to say: “everything will be okay.”

an old friend of mine.

*edited*
I met my old friend several days ago and have a short coversation with him. Then suddenly he said something I never thought before, and that's really surprised me... 

“... you are the type of person who would not work so hard for something you thought unimportant. I know, that’s you, Nis..."

But then…should I leave everything when it has been already in the middle of the work?

Btw, that day was a not a sweet one, but a fun yet interesting talk with you. It is always fun to know what’s on your mind. Your thoughts, your words,  are always innocent, honest, and straightforward. 

Yeah, thank you, N.

Thank you for making me knows my self better.

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"Sometimes people get to know you better than yourself. Sometimes you need a person who could show something you hide." 

xoxo, 

*I've removed some words on this post, 

just...it would be better if I don't write something too personal here :)

book review: Kamu Indonesia Banget Kalau...

picture taken from avantourists.com

Sebenarnya saya tidak sengaja menemukan buku itu. 

Awalnya saya berniat membeli beberapa novel di sebuah toko buku di Yogyakarta bersama Ayah saya. Saat pertama kali melihat buku itu, jujur, saya tertarik dengan judulnya yang cukup ‘menggelitik’ menurut saya; “Kamu Indonesia Banget Kalau…” Kemudian pada saat saya melihat penulisnya, yang ternyata bukanlah orang Indonesia, membuat saya semakin tertarik. 

I do really feel so curious about its content.

Saya juga bertanya-tanya, penasaran, ‘memangnya seperti apasih orang Indonesia itu di mata bule—warga negara asing- ?’ 

Then, I decided to buy it….

… actually my dad paid the book for me. hahaha.

As I guess, this book is totally interesting!

Sangat menarik dan cukup blak-blakan, menurut saya. Berit Renser, the author of this book, bercerita 

dengan gaya yang santai dan diselingi beberapa humor yang membuat saya tersenyum bahkan tertawa, menertawai hal-hal ‘aneh’ yang kadang-kadang juga saya lakukan.

On the first part, Berit Renser menceritakan bagaimana dia bisa ‘terdampar’ di sebuah negara yang bernama Indonesia. Sebuah negara, yang bahkan ia sendiri belum tahu banyak mengenai Indonesia, anyway she comes from Estonia. Konon katanya, jarak Indonesia dan Estonia adalah dari satu ujung dunia ke ujung lainnya.

Di awal membaca buku ini saja, saya sudah cukup tercengang—mungkin agak berlebihan, tapi ini benar-benar yang saya rasakan—betapa apa yang kadang-kadang kita pikirkan tentang suatu hal bisa berbeda dengan apa yang dipikirkan oleh orang lain.

Ada beberapa pemikiran Berit Renser yang terus terang, menurut saya, sangat berbeda dengan pemikiran saya. But then, back again, this is just a book, a thought, an opinion, about Indonesia and Indonesian people. Benar-benar menarik dan bisa menjadi sebuah refleksi mengenai perilaku kita, yang mungkin tanpa kita sadari membuat orang lain tidak terlalu nyaman.

Salah satu bagian yang menjadi favorit saya dan berhasil membuat saya terbahak, sekaligus menertawai diri saya sendiri, adalah ketika Berit Renser memberikan beberapa kalimat untuk menggambarkan “Kamu Indonesia Banget Kalau…”.

Then, here my favorite sentences:

 “Kamu Indonesia Banget Kalau…

…menurutmu semua bule bisa bahasa Inggris dan kemampuan berbahasa Inggris berhubungan dengan warna kulit.

…takut matahari padahal kamu tinggal di daerah khatulistiwa.

…kamu mengadakan rapat untuk merencanakan rapat.

…kamu pernah diam-diam memotret bule dan bilang ke orang-orang di sekitarmu bahwa kamu berteman akrab dengan si Bule.

...seumur hidupmu kamu habiskan untuk tersenyum.

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Banyak hal yang bisa dipelajari dan direnungkan setelah membaca buku ini.

But it’s really worth-to-read!

Sometimes, we need a ‘mirror’ to remind us about who we are, what we are, how we look like. Then we could use it to make things better – to keep what’s worth to keep or to leave the bad ones.

- Nisrina Putri

Seperti kata-kata Berit Renser dalam buku ini, “..aku percaya tidak ada yang lebih buruk atau lebih baik. Kita semua hanya berbeda…”

Anyhow, I do really thanked Berit Renser for writing this awesome yet interesting book.

Terima kasih! :D

Tertarik untuk membacanya? 

Go find it on your favorite bookstore! :p
Tchao,