waiting outside the lines.

Accidentally found this Greyson Chance’s song, and found out that its lyrics are soooo deep!
It’s entitled: Waiting Outside The Lines.
I think it’s just a perfect song for this year-end-to-new-year.
"Here’s my favorite lyrics:
Try to have no regrets
Even if it's just tonight
How you gonnna walk ahead
If you keep living blind

Stuck in the same position,
You deserve so much more
There's a whole world around us,
Just waiting to be explored"

Oh Gosh, it’s so inspiring. I bet most of you have-or still- written your new year resolution. Since writing a new year resolution is like making a commitment to yourself. I think new year resolution is a promise. What you would do, what you wouldn’t do. What things you want to reach. It’s a small dreamboard of your life. And, succeed or not, it depends on you. It depends on your effort. If your really want to get it, go get it. In the right way of course. Never forget to pray. Because there’s always God’s interference in every single thing you have got. In your success.

les photos.

And finally, this is it! :p

Some photos I want to share to you!

voila! 

With mommy! This photo was taken on November. We both look cute, isn't it? :p

with Bolon-girls! :p It was taken on PASAKRAB event on last October! FYI, it's our 2012's first project!

With Bolon + Kak Pamela + Kak Jojo! Mihihihi. It was taken when we're on TKA! On last October if I'm not wrong. TKA (Temu Kenal Akrab) was totally FUN.

This photo was taken on this December! On LM Psychology's biggest event of the year: SEMINAR NASIONAL! It's great to meet and have many new friends there! 

AAAAAND, with ma beloved cousins!!! mihihihi, sorry if this photo looks "too much" :p

I placed these photos randomly. Sorry :p

Talk to you again soon! 

Anyway, I still haven't had any idea where to spend my new year's eve. hmm... any idea? Can anybody ask me to go to somewhere in new year's eve?-_-

xoxo,

this is what makes me feel better.

Bonjour blog!

Ça va?

Moi, je suis bien. Trés bien.

Ah, oui!

I’ve started my french course. Aaand it is fun. Fun. Fun. Totally fun. It’s like when you do something to release the stress because of too-much-college-tasks-to-do.

Time flies.

 I was sorry for not posting regularly here :’( since something wrong with my blog or my modem or..yeah, I dunno.

My first semester as a college student will nearly end. I’ll become a second-semester-college student. Uumm… amazing. Yay, amazing. I feel so unbelieveable that I finally could pass my first semester well. Even I still don’t know how my IP is. Overall, being a college student is good. Fun. Amazing.

Actually, I feel so lucky being of college student. Since there, outside here, still many people want to study in a college. Thank God, Alhamdulillah.

I have promised to myself that I won’t waste my time here doing nothing. I will do something. I will use my chance as a college student to study more. To ask more and more. To never feel enough with my knowledge. *errr….okay, I think it’s too much*

But yes. That is.

Maybe I’ve finally found my daily rythms.

My daily activities.

College-course-tasks-“galau-ing”-….

Homesick? Sometimes, but I haaaardly ever feel it these days. 

FYI, on December 23^rd -24^th , my parents and my brothers had just visited me :p muehehe. Sooo glad since I needn’t go home which takes a very long time journey. 5 hours. Hahaha.

Then…what?

What makes me sad is that I still haven’t met my besties yet. :’( Betha, Opi, Izzah, Saras, and even Diba who also study in Jogja.

Anyway, I’ve been in love again! With Yogyakarta of course! :p

Hahahahaha.

Yes, last holiday my Family and I visited Prambanan Temple. It was aaaaawesome! Amazing! I think I’ve to go back there since I haven’t finished to visit all of the 1000 temples there :p

See ya on my next post!

Miss ya so much!!!!!

xoxo,

*ps: I want to share some photos but there’s something wrong with my laptop :’( I’ll post it later maybe :’(

rather long post.

Bonjour, blog!
I’m back! Yay! New story, lots of story!
College stuff and my new activity: take a french course! Yay. Hahaha.
Anyway, how are you doing? Do you miss me? No? It’s okay. But I miss you so much much much blog! I have had a plan to post something here since 4 days ago. But yes,unfortunately  I’m too busy :p huahaha.

But….. I’m sad right now, blog.
I don’t know but everything becomes too messy for me. Everything seems hard to be organized. Everything seems too complicated. I don’t know but I think there’s something like a tangle thread .  I don’t know. Umm.. everytime I try to think about one thing, then comes another things. Aaaand so on.
Gosh, I don’t know.
 What’s wrong with me :’’’(
 Am I rather stress? 
Too much thing to do.
Too much thing I wanna do but yes, I have some problem with time management. Uhm.. Okay. To be honest.

I’m totally confused. Chaos.
The worst thing about me is that I ALWAYS think about something that haven’t happened yet. Yes, I’m worried too much. Sometimes also labile. OH GOSH-__-

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Aaaaand by the time I write this post, I still have unfinished-even a- haven't-done-yet task. Basic psychology- cognitive part. 2.

Overall, My love for psychology is getting bigger and bigger *wetsaaaaaaaah*. Learning psychology makes you understand you. And I love it. Yes, Psychology, I love you so much! :* ahahah

And also, last Monday was my first class for french course. It was interesting! Fun! But… hahahaha there’s something funny about one of my classmates. But yeah, I won’t tell you about it :p
Since he is....….......
okay, enough.

Bye Blog!
See you next time!
Tchao!

a bedtime story.

Hey Blog!

How’s your life?

Raining’s started to come (almost) everyday. Yes, It’s rain season. I always love the rain, but there’s some exceptions here: I love rain when there’s no my (jemuran). Hahaha, LOL.

So yes, I’ve just started my step. I start to join organization, a place where I belong to (err…). I know it’s still on faculty section, not in university section. But whatever, whenever it is, I’ll try to be my best. 

And finally, I’ve registered my self in a course to learn french! Yayness! This is what I really want (and wait) since my first time in Jogja. I love learning language. I always love it. Eventhough it’s not so easy, but it always FUN. Yes, Language is ALWAYS FUN. 

 

How about my college life?.....

Yes, I’m still having a mid-term test until next Monday. It’s civics-education, btw. It’s okay. But there’s still much tasks which waiting for me to finished ‘em. I don’t know, but I even don’t feel like I wanna touch them at all. Err… I wish all the tasks have finished as soon as I wake up tomorrow :p hahahahaha.

I start to know my new friends more… and more. How they really are. Without mask, maybe. The one whom I thought was good enough, not actually good. Yes, there’s a phase when you realize that what it’s look in the cover is really different in the real life. Like an old proferbs: “don’t judge the book by the cover.”

Dilemmatics, maybe.

When you know there’s something wrong between your friends, your groups, but you don’t know what to do. You know that you actually can speak up, trying to fix it. But yes, back again….you don’t want to be considered as a “hero wanna be”, right?

It’s ironic when you know there  are problems in your groups but you have no idea what to do. At least, trying to make things better.

BLAH.

What I’ve just said?

Nothing, right-_-

I always say that “I should do this… I should do that…I won’t be like that…I know I can be like….”

But everything that I’m saying is just in words.

Why don’t you stop talking and start doing action,Nisrina?

xoxo, 

philosophized.

Bonsoir!

I don’t know why I feel more interested in writing blog when I’m still having a test. Yeah! I’m still having a mid-term test, FYI. Tomorrow is the second day with a lovey-dovey-subject: philosophy. Yaaaaaaay! *straight face* -____-

I….dunno why but….philosophy’s language seems too “high” for me to understand. I even haven’t started to study about it. Whereas, the test will be scored  +2 for the right answer and -1 for the wrong one. 0 for the unanswered-question. AH-_-

I feel rather stress maybe. That is why I was told fatter than before by Opi, in our last conversation via telephone 2 days ago. HAHAHA-_- Almost everyday I eat bread, after eating 3 times in the right time (breakfast, lunch, and dinner). Hell yeah, so bread is my one of favorite snack here! Since, you know the carbohydrate in a bread is the same as rice’s. Hurray! I’m fatter! Huraaay I’m bigger! -_- HAHA.

SO YES, back to philosophy. I’m trying to philosophizing the philosophy………. *do you catch what I’m saying?*

I think, philosophy is……..erm…. a….erm…

Okay, better back to study. 

Back to reality.

Back to...back to... philosophy muahmuahmuah!! <3>

...................................

SO WHY VINO G. BASTIAN HAS BEEN MARRIED WITH MARSHATIMOTHY??????

SO WHY I HAVEN’T MET MY PRINCE CHARMING YET????? *okay, ignore it-_-

Bye bye blog! See you soon!

Xoxo,

*
 Ps. I’ll be back to Pekalongan this week!!! Seems so exciting since I haven’t EVER gone home yet-_- muahahah.

i'm (not) sad.

Last week, I'd had a "makrab" psychology or what we called TKA (Temu Kenal Akrab). It was fun. exciting, but........
FYI, I'd decided to not to watch Afgansyah Reza in Semarang......a chance that I've had...that I finally almost watch his performance live--with my besties, but then..... I chose TKA instead of watching Afgansyah Reza :''''''')

I know gan, we'll meet someday. We'll meet, gan, Afgan :') I believe it. 

ARE YOU SAD,NISRINA?

Of course, absolutely, I WAS SAD. YES, I WAS SAD.
I say, I was sad, because now I'm not :)
I know the ticket had been wasted since it couldn't be return. I know it. But the most important thing is, at least, I've tried to buy-- and had had a plan to watch Afgansyah Reza live.
oh yes, I know that this post is really unimportant.
I'm sorry blog -_-V
I don't know.... I just feel I wanna write something here..... okay.
*

So how's your life, blog? I'm okay, still awesome of course, hahahah.
Next week, there will be a mid-term exam. Wish me luck, yeah. Hope that I'll get a good score so that I could get 4 for my first IP! :p muahahaha.
Talk to you later, blog!

xoxo,
Miss Nerdy.

sweeter than seventeen.

Alhamdulillah.
Thank you so much Allah.
It's more than I thought before.
I'm...actually me, so speechless. I feel so lucky. To have sucha best friends who are so lovely-dovey. aaand... to get a nwe friends who are so, more than kind. nice. very nice. aaaaaa. yes, Alhamdulillah...


So yes, today I'm a 18th year-old-girl(?)
Alhamdulillah, I'm still alive. I'm still...yes, still here. Many things happened. may, so much much more. I still remember what happened on my 17th birthday. But yeah, I'd moved on. I'd forgotten what I should forget. And it's okay :)

And Allah is very, more than kind.
Allah replaces my-out-of-wished-17th-birthday with this very sweet 18th birthday.
Eventhough I'm far away from my family, I don't feel alone. I have a new family here. In Yogyakarta. I find my love here. I catch my dream, my passion here. To study in here, UGM, is sucha big big present I've ever got. Even to get very nice and kind friends here.
Alhamdulillah,
How my besties, who are far away also still care (ME MISS YOUUUU). Betha, Opi, Izzah, Adiba.... I'm speechless. How....sweet they're still care with me. how... how ah :(

I can't stop crying today.
First, when my parents called me. They said "Happy Birthday" to me. I suddenly feel like I wanna go home. I wanna hug them. I wanna say that I love them. I miss them, so much! :(
And then, a sweet voicenote from Betha and Opi. I miss how we waste our time just to talk about nothing. I miss my bestfriends, since I remember what they did to me when I was down a year ago :(
Allah, save them. Give them what's best for them :'( aamiin.

What most surprising is a cute-little-present from my new friends. Although we've just been met for a month, we've been close friend. aaaaand, this little gift is like woke me up that yes, we are really close friend. I don't know what should I do to reply their kindness. :'(
Ah, THANK YOU SO MUCH BOLON! Aloy,Sabda,Ryan,Andina,Dina,Indri,Azka,Maya,Rara, THANK YOUUU! :')

It's a long post. sorry :p
But yes, I also wanna thanked all my friends who can't be mentioned one by one. But I'll post your greetings soon!

So yes, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
18th is like a line start.
18th is like an alarm.
18th is like a sign.
That I have to be more mature.
That All I have to do is focus on my future.
That All I have to do is do something better for myself, others, and this country, Indonesia.
That yes, I have to keep spirit. to catch my dream.

LOVE YOU SO,BLOG!
xoxo,
miss nerdy.

Jogjakerdah.

Me greet you live from Jogjakerdah. Yogyakarta.

Yayyy!! Finally I'm here! Hahahaha.

Here's a Hello from me and mr. shaun the sheep! Lol.

 

Yea, wish me luck for my "OSPEK" things!!!! ;)

Talk to you ASAP!

Xoxo,

Op Op Pararop!

Ah, things happened so fast. People come, people go. We let ‘em go and then moving on.....

Yeah, My beloved-grandma had passed away :(

A week ago. I was sad. Of course. She’s my mom’s-mom. I saw my mom cried. I can do nothing but keep praying so that my mom-also our family, big family- can be strong enough to face it.

Hmmm yeah, enough for this sad things. We have already being strong to face it and let it go. But yeah, keep praying for grandmas and grandpas who’d passed away.

It’s been half-month of ramadhan. And…… 2-weeks-to-go to leave Pekalongan and go to my-new-beloved-town----- Yogyakarta. Jogjakerdah. Hihihihi.

I’ll stay at boarding house. I’ll live far from ma beloved parents….-this is my first time-fyi. Aaaaaaaah. I don’t know, I have no idea about this. I hope things will be alright. I will be okay, and I won’t feel alone because I’ll get new friends. Aamiin.

*

My I-can’t-stand-with-this-cute-stuff- syndrome is getting worse. What kind of stuff? Shoes, clothes, hijabs, bags…. Aaaaa yeah, I wish this is not an online-shopper syndrome. I should cure myself, ASAP! Hahaha lol.

Currently listening GAC’s first album!

It’s totally-supa dupa awesome!!  

Then… yeah, I’ll see ya again soon, blog! :p

Xoxo,

tu me manques beaucoup!

-->

Bonsoir, blog! Tu me manques beaucoup! :’(

It’s been a month since my last post. No, I’m not busy at all. It’s because of the internet connection. Yeah, the modem actually :’(

I miss you so bad, blog!! :’

Too much things happen these weeks.

College things?

Yes of course.

Allah is very kind. I know Allah loves me. I should have to be better and better and be grateful everyday. To get a college isn’t easy these days.

Me? Alhamdulillah,I’ve got it. I’m so thankful to Allah.

Everything happens because of Allah.

But knowing your friends still haven’t got it ….. it’s really sad. I don’t know what I should do. I wish I could help them. All I can do is pray. I’m praying for their best.

I’m praying for their strong. I’m praying so that they can pass it well.

As long as you happy, dear.

After a few days having can’t-stop-smiling-everyday-face, I get a can’t-hide-that-I’m-sad-face.

After a couple weeks feeling I’m-the-most-cheerful-girl-in-this-world, I see that everything-becomes-dark.

After thinking that I-finally-had found-my-prince-charming, My mom forbids me.

So yes, here I am. Mom’s-beloved-daughter.

I can do nothing.

I’m her one and only daughter. And all I can do is make her happy.

So yes, here I am. Trying to be happy and happy.

*

I’m okay.

I’m okay.

I’m okay.

I’m okay.

It’s okay when nobody listen.

It’s okay. Because I have you blog.

Yeah, I’m okay blog. I’m okay :)))

As long as he’s happy, I’m happy :))))

As long as he’s okay. I’m okaaaaay ;)))

I’m okay.

I’m okay.

I’m okay.
:)
*

xoxo,

 

asking why.

........and I keep asking why
why we should meet
why there's someone who's really sweet like you
why we can't be.....
why
why
why
why....and I know I'll never ever find the right answer.
you should find your princess as soon as possible, dear :)
I promise I'll pray for your best .

dear rain, I miss my rainbow.

image source weheartit

Dear rainbow,

Thank you for making my world more colorful

Thank you for making me laugh with your simple thought

Thank you for being the sweetest person I’ve ever met

Thank you for inspiring me to be someone better

All I can say is thank you for everything

I never ever thought that prince is exist-that’s you :p

Thank you thank you thank you

Dear rainbow,

I’m sorry for my imperfect

I’ve promised to myself that I, whatever happen I won’t never let you hurt

I won’t ever let you sad

I won’t ever let your bright-smile disappear

If there’s someone who should hurt , then that should be me, not you

Dear rainbow,

I love you.

*

xoxo,